I thought lifting would cure everything. That it would make me more confident and attractive.
Which in a way it did but now there are new problems. It can sometimes make the Big Sad go away, especially when lifting is going well, but not always.
When it isn’t going well, I can get even more depressed. Injuries, bad body image days and the stress of being enough.
On the outside, I’m better than ever. Everyone thinks I should be so happy.
But if strong, why so sad?